Nursing Home/ Karaoke Night! (B.O.A.)

Damn, I haven't done one of these in forever. But I have been trying to look nice! Actually, it's gonna be a double. Because I think I looked nice on the first day of Spring Break too haha. Well the plaid shirt is from Esprit, jeans by Levi's. In the second one, shit is from American Eagle, tank top is from Abercrombie and Fitch, necklace by...Guess I think, jeans by American Eagle, and scarf by Hot Topic. Hehe, karaoke is fun.

"It's My Third Date"

I hope it went well
For them.
Because I know
Why it's not going well
For me.

And it's not my fault.
And I dunno if I can deal with it.

Because...
I don't know why.
But I really want it to
Be my fault.

So I can fix myself
So that everything works
Out.

I can't fix anyone else.

La Roux (M.S.O.)

Androgynous, electronically pop, gorgeous...those are three words to describe the awesomeness that is La Roux. Even though people are more familiar with Elly Jackson, the band is actually made up of her and Ben Langmaid. Their music is just great. My favorite track so far is "Bulletproof." Her voice is incredible and her style is really sharp. The makeup work in the video is amazing. Their lyrics are so simple and the electro-synth riffs are danceable, but also easy to listen to. I really recommend them.

Shutter Island (M.R.)

There is one phrase to describe this movie: "What the f*ck." It was repeated at least 5 times, along with "why are you all wet, baby?" and "we're smarter than them." Unfortunately, if I disclose anymore, the League of People Against Spoilers would have to come and kill me. Kidding. Shutter Island was a great movie. It had action, thrills, chills, creepy music, and will keep you asking questions until long after you see it.

The premise of the film: two deputy marshalls go investigate a mental institution for the criminally insane on Shutter Island, just outside of Boston. Mental institution pose a scary image in people's minds and Scorsese really captured the creepiness of it. The movie stops making sense about five minutes into it. When the music starts. The melody is still stuck in my head, which barely is a melody; it's more of a sound.

But the movie is a glorious thrill ride. It really is engaging. You try to figure out the truth along with Teddy Daniels. I cannot say anything more, because I would give away the entire movie. But Leonardo DiCaprio does a fine job portraying the pain of the experience of being in the mental hospital. Just like him, the watchers ask many, many questions, some of which remained unanswered.

People who enjoy mysteries should see it. People who enjoy thrillers should see it. Some parts though, I warn you, are not for the faint of heart...or mind.

Rating: 9/10

OMG >.< (R.P.)

After this year, I am never working at a nursing home. Especially Mary Manning Walsh. I know this sounds really extreme and whiny, but I can't take it anymore. Today was pretty bad. Someone took a dump on someone else's bed, which is why the entire sixth floor smelled awful. And then someone pooed their pants during lunch. I. Can't. Do. It. Anymore.

Mall Trip

Alice Dork,
Arizohna,
MG(squared),
Douglass,
Mulan,
And I
Went to a mall.

What an adventure.
I saw things from
A different perspective.
And I never laughed as
Hard as I did today.

And Lord of the Rings
Is absolutely funny now.

You're Beautiful (Again)

Papaya has a lovely voice.
Red has great style.
Caveman has great hair.
Poofy Hair is fun.
Just Fabulous has a funny way of acting.

And that's the summary of tonight.

First Two Days Of Spring Break (R.P.)

I am pooped. Like, I've spent only a few hours at home. And those hours were spent sleeping, showering, and eating breakfast. I've spent the other hours at school, uptown and in Boston. The dinner that I had with my friend's friends was fun and so was my cousin's baby shower in Boston. See, now I have to specify because someone I know was dumb and asked if it was my baby shower when I posted about it on facebook. People really don't think sometimes.

You're Beautiful

I saw you on the subway
Today and you were
Gorgeous.

I can't even begin to describe it.
Lightly toussled hair,
Cute flannel on,
Body-hugging jeans...

One problem:
You had a bouquet
Of flowers in your hand.

Dammit.
I'd love to date someone
Who would get me a bouquet
Of roses.

Whoever is dating you
Is incredibly lucky.

And I want to think
That whoever dates me
Is incredibly lucky
Too.

Oh hello.
You're a girl.

Ugh, either way
You're still really
Gorgeous.

Sorry Guys

So I've been getting
Quite horrid at posting.

So much work
And commitments.
Like all the school work
This week.
All the events this and
Next weekend.

I need to keep taking
Care of myself.
The junk food dinners
Are taking a toll on my
Skin.

I don't think that I
Think enough.
I have all these scenarios
Playing out in my head.
I need to make some
Come true.

Like college letter
Joy
And report card
Fear.

Perder La Vista

Yo me despierto
Por la mañana
Y yo no te veo.

Estoy en un mundo nuevo.
Un mundo donde esta
Tú no estas.

No sé nada sobre tu
Y yo.
Tú eres mi amigo,
Pero ahora
Tú no exiges.

El tiempo que pasamos juntos?
Yo te borré de
Esos recuerdos.
Como si nunca
Sucedió con usted.
Todo el mundo estaba allí.

Yo vivo en un mundo ahora
Donde perdí la vista.
Tu estás fungible para mí.

Creo que tú no me puedes ver.
Yo espero que esto sea creo.

En los ojos de mi cabeza,
Tú eres una sombra.

Yo no te veo.

Home Depot

Negativity causes
People to snap.
So does an
Inappropriately heightened
Sense of self worth
And importance.

Some people can
Literally be sold
At the Home Depot.

If you don't like
What you're going
To hear,
Don't do or say anything.

The Price of Beauty (T.V.C.)

Though technically a reality TV show because it is on vh1, I find it more of a documentary. It is kind of difficult to take seriously because of the aforementioned facts and Jessica Simpson being the host. But the documentary sort of aspect of it is quite fascinating.

Jessica Simpson goes on a world tour in search of what other cultures find beautiful. Let us do a quick brainstorm of American beauty ideals: slim build, ample breasts and butt, good hair, etc. etc. At least that is what I have noticed. In other countries, they have other ideals.

Her first stop is Thailand, where being pale is gorgeous. Here it seems to be more popular to be tanned. There is a tribe in the Northern region of the country who thinks that long necks are pretty. But what is interesting is that they also talk about the dangers of trying to fit the ideal. One woman wound up dangerously dying her skin, experiencing vitiligo-like symptoms.

I am looking forward for the next episode, which is about France.

Opening Doors

I've got a pretty
Long hallway to walk down.
Three out of
Fifteen doors
Have already been
Opened.
And there have been
Good things behind them.

I'm opening a fourth
And I'm terrified.

I don't want my
Parents to be right about
This one.
But I don't know
What I'd do
If there were
Good things behind it.

We'll find out
Soon enough though.

I Actually Kind of Love How I Look Now...(N.a.P.)

I actually kind of love how I look now. I have the cutest tummy. It comes in at the waist pretty awesomely and it's really good seeing my hard work pay off. Oh. Yeah I sound a bit like a pregnant lady, but I'm not! Pregnancy is gorgeous but not for me (right now). I can wait a few years for a kid.

I'm watching My Life as Liz and it's the prom mini-arc. Her prom looks like so much fun, but mine will be cool too. I am going to look like a princess. Seriously, I'm getting a tiara and white, lace wrist gloves. And the prettiest shoes ever. I haven't been to a semi-formal, which is tonight for sophomores and juniors. So me being sick and cooped up at home sucks because most of my friends are partying in up. I hope it's fun for them though. I still have the dress I was planning on wearing last year. I might wear it on some random day when I want to feel really pretty.

Today I would, but I want to celebrate my natural beauty. SPA DAY FOR THE WIN!

"Stop Telephoning Me-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh" (N.a.P.)

I hope I inserted the proper amount of "eh's" in the title haha. You have to love Lady Gaga and her bizarre videos and style. I am in love with her makeup though.

You know how Chinese people have a really cool names for their years, like 2010 is Year of the Tiger? I think senior year for me is Year of the Sick Blogger and Asthmatic. I've missed two days of school so far this year and my winter break because of illness. It's a bit ridiculous. It might be because of stress though because college decisions are coming soon and I'm super nervous. I don't take rejection well! I'm really good at faking that, but inside I'm like crying, haha. But at least I got into the two schools listed below. One has biomedical engineering as a major option, so that's good.
Since I'm out today, I have lots of time to do stuff. Such as work on essays. And cook. I've been cooking so much because I want to try new foods and what not. I like being vegetarian. It's got so much variety and interesting flavors. The first meal I prepared for myself was avocado cream pasta, which was relatively simple. Last night I got a little more complicated with quinoa with butternut squash and eggplant. Butternut squash is so hard to dice even AFTER peeling the skin off. It probably wasn't ripe today. My cooking project today? Eggplant and mozzarella paninis. I am SO excited.

Fun Stuff? (N.a.P.)

So I woke up this morning with an asthma attack. Ugh. The thing I hate is that if I take my asthma pump early enough in the morning, I'm so wobbly. Like, I can't stand and talk to people normally because I'll be teetering. Yep, Electrohead got a first-hand experience of that. And PhotographEEr did too earlier in the year when I almost fell over because I lost motor control in my knees. At least I'm not on that God-awful asthma medication that made me extremely depressed and had me singing the Beatles.

Saturday I have a speech tournament, which I think my body is protesting. Haha, go me and psychosomatic rebellion. Fun part about the tournament is that I'm doing to be doing duo with Douglass and I'm excited. I kind of want to do something serious, well not serious as in "not funny" but serious as in kind of prepare something. Oh well.

Now I am going to go cook.

Cry, Dammit!

The Crying Girl's dead.
I mean, there's a part
Of her that's always
In me.

But she's gone.

The one where a joking
"I hate you"
Would get the water flowing.

Where just thinking
About certain people,
Certain moments,
Certain places
Could wheel her into
Such a spinning cycle
Of insecurity.

And I know
I'm upset.

And she's not there.
I don't know where
She went, but I know
When she'll return.

She comes when I'm
Most vulnerable.
When the littlest thing
Will irritate me.

And she'll come.
She might be coming
Soon.

"I Tremble, Tremble, Tremble (They're Gonna Eat Me Alive)"

Yes, I have been listening
To a lot of Metric.

Emily Haines' voice
Is so haunting.

And honestly,
"Help I'm Alive"
Is speaking so loudly.

It doesn't mean
"Help I'm Alive"
As in I'm emo and
Can't stand this world
Anymore.

It's a cry for advice
Because I,
Like 6 billion others,
Are here.

And some of us
Could use a helping hand.

Actually,
Most of us can.
Right?

I Don't Take Myself Seriously All the Time

Sometimes I get super intense
Over things.
Like boys I like,
Relationships,
And whatnot.

But when it comes down to it,
I don't take it too seriously.

I mean,
One boy isn't into me,
I got another boy's number
But so what?

We're still going to be friends.
Something may or may not
Come out of having his number.

But I'm still going to be me.
My hearts going to keep beating.
So is everyone else's.

Well, it stops someday.
But for the time being,
It's going to keep on
Beating at a steady 66
Beats per minute.

And plus.
I'm going to college.
Seriousness where
Seriousness is due.

The things mentioned above,
Can be taken lightly.

At least for now.

I Want To Be An Artist

Not professionally,
But I want to be an artist.

A woman with a word choice
That can demolish hearts in
One line
And put them back together in
The next.

I want to write poems
That can change the world.

Maybe not in the way
That Shakespeare impacted
All of English literature
Or the way Paul McCartney
And John Lennon
Changed the face of the music
World one song at a time.

But I want to be able to
Change a person's mindset.
Not anyone specific.

I want someone to read one
Of my poems
And be able to relate.
Or be able to gain some insight.

I mean, compared to most people,
I don't know jack shit.

But I want what I do know
To help others
Or speak to people
With words that I didn't know
I could say.

I want to be an artist.
I want someone to notice.
To hear my words and
Actually think about them.

Even if it's a stupid poem
About a speck on a window
Or how skinny I feel
Or how crazy I am
About a certain person.

I just want people to listen.
Or at least read.

At the Mercy of My Stomach

Stop yelling at me.
Stop fighting with me.
Stop being so freaking angry.

I have a speech tourney
Tomorrow,
Meaning this morning,
And you kept me up
Until about 1:30 AM.

I don't even know if
I slept between
11 PM and 1:30 AM.

I don't know if I
Were dreaming or
Thinking of you
And wishing you
Could just stop.

But 6:30 AM is
Way too early to start eating
Breakfast.

But wait a second,
I do that most mornings.

I Took A Test Today

I took a test today,
And the book was right there.
On my desk.

How the teacher
Trusts me to not
Take a gander at
The notes written
In the pages,
On the poems,
And in the margins.

Imagine if I could.
Would my score improve?
It might stay the same.

"Your Lipstick Stains"

I can't get that song out
Of my head.
Is it because it plays
In the senior section
Multiple times a day?
Or do the lyrics actually
Mean something to me?

I can't really relate to
Any of the feelings
Expressed by it.
Only in the realm
Of relationship posthumous.

And I usually always add on
To whatever relationship or
Lack there of woes I have
The phrase, "but that's okay."

There's a nagging voice
Somewhere back there
That tells me otherwise.

And Curly said that
Maybe we're all just
Redoing the same thing,
Finding our other half,
Lifetime after lifetime.

Or something like that.

What if I failed many times before?
And never found that person?
What if I succeeded and million times before?
What if this is just an endless cycle of
Doing things you can't remember
Because every life time
Is independent of the other.
And there's no way to gain insight,
But just going by instinct.
Well guess what?

We've got nothing but time.

Tegan & Sara (M.S.O.)

These Canadian twins are AWESOME. They have the cutest harmonies going on, almost as cute as Simon and Garfunkel's. Except less politicized with much shorter songs. My favorite album of theirs is The Con, partially because it is the first album of theirs that I downloaded. Their hooks and lyrics awesome with really interesting verses such as "I just want back in your head/ I'm not unfaithful but I'll stray/ When I get a little scared." Another favorite of mine is "All I want to hear is that your not mine." But they're really fun, especially that song they wrote with Tiesto, "Feel It In My Bones." It is so beautiful and amazing. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED.

Blogging Break, You Know What That Means

So I'm pmsing majorly.
Yesterday I felt awesome.
Today I felt like crawling
Under a rock.
Or curling up in my senior
Sweater.

Same shit.

Tomorrow better be freaking
Awesome.
Actually,
I might be getting my bio test
And my stats test back.

ARGHHH!

Tool Academy 303 (T.V.C.)

Wow...major editing fail. I just want to say, I had no idea what was going on this episode, until after the commercials when they took time to explain what just happened.

But hot damn, tempers were FLYING. I don't think people on this show have been this angry yet. Daniel and Lesley need to chill out. Sure, he had a fit of jealousy, but she launched at him like a spider monkey. I don't think it's ever justified for a girl to leap at her guy like that. And he dumped her. If she acted out like that every time they argued, I can see why. Even though he is a bit childish.

I was a bit disappointed that Jacob didn't get eliminated. He doesn't do anything. Neither does his girlfriend. It's just annoying how quick he is to jump at other people.

I felt the worst for Kourtney. I can totally relate to her issues. I thought it was totally...disrespectful for that one woman to call her a man with a vagina. That was rude on so many levels. I am not saying this just because she is a lesbian and I am justifying her behavior, but that was a really low blow.

Next week's episode is going to be bizarre. Tools having fun; girls arguing and throwing drinks at each other. What. The...?

I FOUND A DRESS! (R.P.)

...not telling which one =] You have to wait for June to find out. But one of my friends already knows.

But the dress looks perfect on me...even though my mom is all like "you need to lose some pounds." I know, mom, I know. xD

What I Wore Today (B.O.A.)

Today was my friend Chelsea's birthday and before I went to it, I wore an awesome outfit that I would like to share. I wore a plaid vest by Esprit, a white tee from American Apparel, and awesome jeans from American Eagle. I need to get someone to take my pics for me because awkward angles aren't fun.

Besides that, the birthday party was AWESOME =] I suck at bowling, meaning that I am the coolest. Because, apparently, there are no cool bowlers. No offense to anyone.

Prom Dress Shopping Part Deux(B.O.A.)

So I went dress shopping today. On my second snow day this year. Snow and dress shopping seemed to go together. Anyway, I went to RK Bridal this time because they have a large selection of dresses. I saw so many that were cute, I spent almost 2 hours trying on dresses. The consultant I worked with was really nice and she could totally relate to the whole "mom needs to approve of the dress" thing since she's a mother. Some prom dresses on the market are way too cut-out. Like asking, "WHERE did the dress go?!" Anyway, here are the 3 I liked most.This is the first one I tried on that I felt good in. It was probably the 8th dress I tried on overall. I loved how the purple looked with my hair and skin tone. It was a bit large at the bottom (compared to other dresses), but it had structure. I tried a few other "bubble" dresses and I am not enough of a rack to fit into those.
This one I fell for. I love how the purple reflects blue; it's like it has my two favorite colors in one. It bunched up really nice around my ass and even though there is some rufflage in the front, it covers up my belly, which is awesome! I felt a bit more refined in that one.
This is the last dress my consultant pulled out for me. The mermaid style looks really really good on me. And the "turquoise" comes out more like a green, but it feels so nice.

Sucky part is that I liked all of these dresses. It's up to my next visit to see which dress gets my mother's stamp of approval. I hope she likes the second one. I really liked it.

Aw S-Word

I seems like the
Trend is instead
F-word-ing saying
Bad words, you
Say the first letter
Followed by "word".

S-word my bio
Grades sucks.

I'm so f-word-ing
P-word-ed off
That stats is still
S-word-y.

G-word d-word it,
My parents think I'm
A lazy d-word bag.

This list of examples
Goes on and on.

I've Fallen So Hard off the Wagon (N.a.P.)

I must be PMSing or something because I'm bloated a lot and I've started hiccuping. Yes, hiccups are a symptom of PMS. At least for me.

Anyway, I've resolved to stop being a fatass for Lent. For those of you that don't know, Lent is a time of anticipation for Christian before Easter. So I am resolving to not eating crap food and not eating so much. Plus, having a perfect prom body won't be bad either, haha. Yeah, not going to happen. That's okay though. I just want to healthy up so that for college I know what to do.

So I request whoever reads this blog to list tips for staying healthy so as to avoid the freshman 15 and general weight gain. =]

Argh!

I'm sorry that sometimes I'm mean.
Actually, I wouldn't say mean;
I tend to be mostly passive-aggressive.
But not so much aggressive.

Either way,
I can't believe I ignored him for most
Of today.
And then someone told me he looked
Sad or
Just not like himself.

Or maybe he just had a lot on his mind.
That had nothing to do with me.
After all,
Nothing is ever really about me,
Is it?

Upper East Side Speechies

Upper East Side speechies.
I saw you in the train this morning.
Clean cut guys in clean suits
And perfectly polished girls also
In clean suits.

And me and Electrohead
Sit in Starbucks as if we're
Better than them...well,
We're not that pretentious.
But we can't really relate.

But the second we got on that
4 train, we looked around.
We were the only light-skinned kids
On it that were sort of polished up.
I mean, he wore a blazer and khaki's
For Christ's sake (irony totally intended).

We were total upper east siders this morning.

Tool Academy 301 (T.V.C.)

This show is golden. Now that they've added Toolettes and a gay couple, it's even better. Except I cannot take it seriously because of Kyle. He's such a sweetie but there is that double standard of him being a total doormat for staying with Jennavecia. Here's a photo of her:I actually feel kind of bad that she went from "hot" to a "slut" so quickly. Just because she's the Toolette. Even though the guys are the same way.

Two guys pissed me off royally: Chasyn and Neander-Tool (I didn't bother memorizing his name because the nickname is hilarious). Chasyn's face bothered me and his attitude. He genuinely didn't seem to care and wussed out so badly. It was kind of funny but more on the "OMG GO AWAY" side. And Neander-Tool is passive too and it was really bad when he started a fight in the middle of therapy. I love Trina, she has a good way of handling stuff. Okay, not really. Security got involved. But she kept a professional demeanor, which was remarkable. Here are pictures of the 2 tools mentioned above:
By the way, Neander-tool definitely wants Jennavecia, in my opinion. But he's probably scared of something blowing between Kyle and Neander-tool's girlfriend. Anyway, at first I couldn't stand Kourtney because of her attitude towards women. But then I realized, she is a tough position: she is a lesbian Tool. That's so different from the other couples, so it seems worse, but in reality, she's as bad as the guys. Not worse just because she's a lesbian. She's actually kind of pretty...in her own way. Like in this pic, she looks pretty cute:
Well that's all I had to say about episode one. The rest of this season should be INCREDIBLE!

Feeling Crappy...God, I Thought This Went Away (R.P.)

I am posting a verse from ""Before the Lobotomy." It kind of describes exactly how I'm feeling.

"I'm not cursed cause I've been blessed
I'm not in love cause I'm a mess"

It's sort of how I'm feeling. I'm better, I'm healthy, but I don't have anything I want. It's a really disappointing feeling.

Ash Wednesday

It's the only day of the year
Where you can pick out
The Catholics and Christians
On a crowded subway platform.

You see them standing there,
Ashes adorning the forehead
And you can't help but wonder:
Is it for real or for ritual?

How many of them actually
Believe in what's being
Celebrated in 40 days
Not counting Sundays?

How many not only believe
But actually practice the
"Treat people well" doctrine
That was taught 2000 years ago?

How many do it out of
Fear of a horrid afterlife?
How many do it regardless
Of there being an afterlife?
Would people still act good
If there were no punishments
Either in this life or if there is
A next one?

One can only wonder.

It's Amazing What Happiness Can Do

I have mellowed out.
I might be laughing more,
But I'm not screaming
As much inside.
I'm not berating myself,
Taunting myself with
"Fat chick" "Dip shit"
And other such phrases.

I'm not at all concerned
With whether or not
I have a million boys
Chasing after me or if I
Have one that agonizes
Over me.

I don't freak out if I get
An 80-something
Because there will always be
Another test,
Another homework assignment.

And my taste in music
Has mellowed out as well.
Metal and screamo and hard rock
Just isn't as appealing as it
Once was.
I stick to mostly techno and indie
Now.
It's got that fun without the
Scary depressing lyrics.
And I love it.

I love every second of this.

Prom Dress Shopping (B.O.A.)

So today's outfit attempt is to make up for the times that I didn't have one. I went prom dress shopping, which was fun. Well, ignoring the fact that I was walking in rain snow, it was fun. I went to David's Bridal because it's close and I didn't want to do too much traveling and they had a decent selection of dresses online. The first one I tried on, this cream tiered one, is really pretty and feminine. I wish I took a side view of it because my ass looked AH-MAZING!
This next one I tried on for the shape. I really like the idea of a mermaid silhouette. I'm not sure how well it played out on me. I just know one thing: no one-shouldered dresses.
This one is definitely the coolest. I really liked the color on me and like the consultant said, it's a great idea for June. Except I'm a bit worried it accents me the wrong way because I've got hips and an ass and what not. But I really like the detailing.So these are today's dresses. I'll post again later when I go shopping again. I won't say which dress I settled for though until the actual prom date. Actually, I'll just post the dress, not with me in it. Teehee!

Sickness

I feel so lethargic.
I have no where to go.
Actually, there are plenty
Of places I can go, I just can't.

I'm highly irritable because
A lot of stuff hurts, like
My head and my
Stomach won't stop kicking.

It's having a really angry
Conversation with me.
I don't know what I did to it--
Damn, it shouldn't even BE kicking.
There's no child there.

Maybe it's begging me to
Work it out,
But I did yesterday.
Okay, I didn't.
I did a 10 second plank.
That's kind of pathetic.

The worst part is the
Lack of contact from
Humans other than my parents.

I'd love to have someone over
But I don't think they'd love
To get whatever the hell cold I have.

Happy Valentine's Day (N.a.P.)

So I was cruising MySpace secrets and a lot of people were complaining about how they're single on Valentine's day and how much is sucks and blah blah blah. I say, screw it. I am sick and that's about what sucks. But it's really just another day, people. Like, it sucks to be alone on legitimate holidays, like Christmas. And most people are jealous and angry on Valentine's day because they don't have someone and all the couples are being cutesy. Doesn't that describe most days though?

And being single isn't all bad. You can do stuff without worrying what your boyfriend or whoever will think. And plus, it isn't taboo to receive Valentines from multiple people. And there are awesome heart-shaped tarts and cakes. And a really good excuse to watch tv and eat ice cream. Except when you're sick, eating ice cream isn't the best idea. Plus, Tool Academy 3 is premiering tonight. I know most of the non-reality-tv-watching community doesn't care, but it is a tv show trainwreck masterpiece (haha oxymoron). And there are lesbians and girls this time around, starring as toolettes. How can that NOT be awesome?

You know what else rocks about single on Valentine's Day? You have the whole day to yourself to do whatever you want. No busy schedules of dates and you can talk and flirt all you want. Speaking of flirting, I really wish I could flirt with a few kids right now, but stuffy throats and runny noses aren't sexy in the least.

Avatar (M.R.)

I will start off by saying that all those jokes people make about James Cameron's Avatar being The Matrix and Pocahontas are all true. The film won in the art and acting departments. The plot could be seen as a win or a fail. Ignoring that ambiguity, there was a very depressing air around the movie.

Seeing the film in 3-D was really fun. I had a bit of challenge having those glasses on, but without them I would not have been able to make out basic shapes. But it just dress attention to the artistic genius, partially contributed by WETA Workshop, the people who worked on the Lord of the Rings trilogy. Even though Pandora looked impressive, there are a few inconsistencies. Like the floating mountains...I doubt those could ever work in any form of actuality.

For Avatar, the art and film directors employed a tactic called "motion-capture," in which various dots are placed on a actor, he is filmed, and then on a computer can be animated. So mastering the movements of a made-up race and their language is quite impressive. Major props to Sam Worthington, who had to master an American accent and the Nav'i one.

There were a few things I liked about the plot and things I did not like. The synopsis is awesome, except it felt so rushed that it was hard keeping track of character names, like the main antagonist. The movie was long enough as is, and one cannot argue that the battle scenes were too long because those too seemed abbreviated. There probably should be an extended edition or director's cut to fill out the movie.

But Avatar, as mentioned earlier, felt a lot like Pocahontas. Except on a much larger scale, more violent and, as a result, more depressing. It follows what nations had done for centuries in the past. It is a bit of a harsh reality and it sort of hit really hard. The effect would have been greater if the plot was not rushed, though.

Overall, I thought it was great in spite of the few shortcomings. Though, that could be a result of me being a huge sci-fi, fantasy movie fan.

Rating: 9/10

Vancouver Opening Ceremony

The Olympic games,
As stated in the opening statement,
Are magical.

The talent,
Both artistic, visual, and athletic,
Is overwhelming.

It is a gathering of the
Best of the best
Representing all of us.

Watching the opening ceremony
In Vancouver,
The magic was evident.

Watching the opening ceremony
In Beijing,
The magic was evident.

Though both are different,
Coming from different backgrounds,
The purpose is still the same.

The Olympics itself
Is a work of art.

At the Nursing Home (R.P.)

So I'm at Nary Manning Walsh home right now and my head is pounding. I don't think I slept enough last night. The smell of this place is overpowering. And it's eerily quiet. Almost too quiet. I mean, Anita is screaming as usually for her companion and that's normal. But besides that, no one is saying a word. It's a little creepy.

But then I went shopping afterwards with PBD. It was awesome ^^

Best. Playdate. Ever! (N.a.P.)

Today I hung out with Arizohna and Alice Dork because we had a snowday. We played rockband, ate hot pockets and built our snow man. It was really fun! I was so cold when I got home though. It was a long journey back from the upper east side to Chelsea.

I wish I lived uptown. So many of my friends live there and stuff. My neighborhood's only fun if you're 21 and besides that, it's kind of lame as a teen. I cannot wait for college. Everything seems to be fun at college!

Snow day!

I imagine that tomorrow morning
I'll wake up to a glorious blanket
Of white bliss covering the urban ground.
Except I will not be sitting at home,
Enjoying a nice cup of hot chocolate
In the afternoon watching vh1.
I'll be at my close friends' house enjoying
Hot pockets and an awesome playdate with
Another friend of ours. I smell a good
Day coming my way.

Disappointment

One of the worst feelings
Ever is an adult addressing
A group of students
Describing to them
How disappointed
He or she at the group.

For simplicity's sake,
I am going to use the
Pronoun he.

Even when you know
That it isn't personally
Your fault that he is
Disappointed in your
Group, you feel awful
That he is disappointed
In the first place.

And he was a man that
I thought I would
Never have to witness
That angry at anyone.

But a lot of that
Seems to be happening
Recently...

It needs to stop.

Cutesy Rocker (B.O.A.)

This morning, I decided to put my hair in pigtails. I think it looks cute, just not from that angle. I haven't done an outfit since I've been feeling crappy. But there shall be more to come this week to make up for it!

White hoodie from American Eagle, tee shirt by I have no idea who, jeans from Levi, and makeup by Este Lauder and Kat Von D.

Sitting

I think I'll always be a sitting girl.
One who sits and thinks and reflects
And thinks and sits.

I realized last night
That dwelling on what's ideal
What you'd ideally want
Is stupid.

It never works out the way
You want it to.
And the more you compare what
You've got right now
To what you've seemingly
Always wanted, you're not
Going to be happy.

You're just going to be disappointed.
I mean,
I always think about what I want
To happen.

Here are the things I've realized:
I'm the person who almost
Never lucks out and is rarely
The exception to rules.
I have to work for everything.

Didn't study one night and
Have a test first period?
Bound to not do well.
Not bound to magically
Do incredibly.

The more I can vividly picture
Something happening,
The more unlikely it is.

I've learned that going
Into things with no expectations
Just makes it that much better.

Like Kairos.
I had zero expectations.
I wasn't expecting it to be
Amazing.
But I wasn't expecting it to be
Horrible.
And it wound up being one
Of the most healing experiences so far.

So I think I should go on
Just not having expectations.

The surprises are always nice.
I like surprises.

My Art (N.a.P.)

I like drawing and photography. I just realized that most of my favorite photos are not of people and all my drawing is of people. It's kind of interesting. Maybe it's because I harbor a secret jealousy for people who photograph really well.

I don't photograph well. Honestly, I think half of my facebook pictures are not accurate representations of how I look. I won't even start on my myspace pics. I overedit those for fun. Not all of them, but a good chunk of them. Haha, I find it fun.

With the art, I ventured into a bit of pointillism because I drew a picture of a girl sitting on a beach and I wanted to hand draw the sand. Let's just say, it's tedious and I disliked it, but it was very relaxing. Poking frustrations out on a piece of paper was awesome. Except I want to go back to word-detailing: it looks cooler and I'm starting to love my handwriting because of it. Apparently I write like great-grandfather. He was a really cool dude. He survived the Holocaust and gave my dad and his family everything he could. One of my favorite stories about him was when he took my dad to preschool on a sled in the middle of May. It's so cute!

Anyway, here's a random blog. I'm feeling much better now.

Tiredness (R.P.)

Man, I have nothing to blog about. At least right now. Blogging when upset has bad consequences. And I'm not even upset, just slightly moody about everything. But maybe something good might come out after all of this.

Looks Like it Was Hogwarts Day (B.O.A.)

Lol my facial expression is so bad in this pic. It just goes to show how tired I have been since about Sunday. But that's what I wore today. A little androgyny from time to time doesn't hurt, but when it's a style, then it gets annoying. I haven't worn any of my ties in forever, so I decided to wear my grey one today to go for a really private school looks.

Tie from American Eagle, shirt from Banana Republic, vest from Esprit, and rings are from various countries and my school.

Sonnet In My Spanish Notebook

Can I compare this to a big earthquake?
It caused big rifts and change and division.
They say crises can stronger friendships make
But after this, I'd say it's time for revision.
When I mentioned full moon appeared
Perhaps it came to shed much needed light
Which would be needed to keep guy here
And this will not go down without a fight.
Now that we are in this bizarre new place,
We should not get too comfortable if we
Would really like to again share some face;
It'd signify happiness to me.
So I don't think that this should ruin us
But we need some talking; move on, we must.

Ulu-ulu-ulu-ulu

I'm so tired
I can't see straight.
I used eye drops
For the first time.

Stinking college
Financial aid
Eats at my mind
And dumb people
Eat at my heart.

I'm drinking
So many fluids
Cuz I cannot
Get sick before
My AP Bio
Field trip to a
DNA lab
Because it sounds
Like fun.

Grammys 2010 (T.V.C.)

So Lady Gaga's entrance...what the hell was going on? She falls into a vat...gets fake set on fire and then is performing live with Elton John. Hell of a win, Gaga, hell of a win. She's such a great performer. I loved her pinky spiral dress. It was AWESOME.

Steven Colbert is the coolest white guy ever. It was cute when he addressed his daughter and told her to "stay away from Katy Perry." That's the best. And Lady Gaga is definitely not dating Elton John. And the Pink Eyed Green Peas. And yeah, why wasn't Susan Boyle there? And he used an iPad, I'm sorry, iTampon. Yes, Steven Colbert is cooler than Jay-Z.

Why did "Single Ladies" win a Grammy for best song? No doubt Beyonce is talented. But...I just really don't like that song.

Crazy fan girl update: I am seeing Green Day's American Idiot on Broadway. Their rendition of "21 Guns" is amazing. Billie Joe performed better this time than at the VMAs. I cannot wait to see it. It will be the best musical ever. Nah, it's hard to beat The Lion King. Loved the collective rock jump at the end.

I'm sure I'm not the only one who wasn't surprised by the fact that Taylor Swift won a Grammy for country.

Beyonce has a nice voice but I don't like the song. This dress suits her better than that unitard. And I've never heard of the Zac Brown band. MGMT should've gotten that. I also liked Silversun Pickups, but they aren't really a "new" artist. By the way, Pink is an awesome performer as well.

"Imma Bee" is so nonsensical. Almost as bad as the "Panda panda panda" song. Fergie actually looks really pretty this time. I really like the song "I Gotta Feeling." Even though it's super nostalgic and I can't handle nostalgia, the beat and tune is awesome.

I'm taking a break for Tough Love 2 Finale. I know I'm lame. But yeah. I hope the rest of the Grammys are awesome =D

Deerhoof (M.S.O.)

Welcome to the realm of the completely nonsensical. I actually love this stuff because the songs are short enough to hold my attention span, but catchy enough that I'm not like "damn, that was it?" But the music is pretty chill and easily gets caught in the head. I've been humming "Panda Panda Panda" for the past hour instead of doing my bio homework. Haha, whoops. These guys are really good considering that I am usually not that huge a fan of indie music.

Basic Outline of G.W.D.Y.M.M.S.L. (G.W.D.Y.M.M.S.L.)

Yeah so it didn't work out for NanoWriMo to write 50,000 words in a month, so I'm just working on it at my own slow pace for fun. Here's an outline of what I have a plot so far:

Nadine is a senior in college and she's got some problems: she's got OCD and is highly germophobic, she can't cope with her and her boyfriend getting intimate, her mom has to chose which dad to marry, her brother's dad spends too much time at their house, and her best friend drinks...way too much. This is a chronology of her last semester of high school and her first semester of college.

Yeah it sounds cheesy, I know. But I like how it's coming out. So the characters are:

• Nadine: the protagonist; has OCD; organizes everything by colors; hates germs; father has no name; best friends are Nat and Mia; girlfriend of Alex; her antagonist at school is Brianna; curvy and likes to workout; going to Brown
  
• Nat: Nadine's best friend; has too many issues; very insecure; drinks a lot; parents quite absentee; really smart; going to Yale; she drinks mostly and hangs out with a large crowd of druggie kids
• Mitch: Nadine's bald brother; he likes philosophy and leads a very schedules life; son of Paul; really caring; can be obnoxious sometimes; hates people; runs his dad's business
• Mom: Nadine's and Mitch's mom; she's caring but can be easily distracted; author for a living; never married; supports kids at all times; knows everything about everyone
• Paul: Mitch's dad; really Christian and proper; wanted to join priesthood
• Dad: Nadine's dad; why he doesn't have, I don't think I'll know
• Brianna: bitchy popular girl; wants to be part of popular drug crowd but can't; has too much sex; gets in everyone's face
• Mia: a junior; really likes musical theater; really positive person; helps Nadine when stuff gets too hard
• Ms. Porter: the school guidance counselor; helped Nat realize her problems
• Mr. Gutierrez: the English teacher; he'll have a bigger role someday

Those are all the characters I have so far. And I love how even though I had nothing to blog about, I found something to blog about.

Fashion Disaster Day (B.O.A.)

Today's school dress down theme was fashion disaster or mismatch. Many kids were like "I'm going to cry on my way to school." I cried waking up because I can't believe that I used to dress like that in freshman and sophomore year. I guess now I take more time to look good but still have that slight edge. I don't know. It's an improvement though! A lot of kids' outfits weren't horrific though, which was disappointing. But it was still a fun day nonetheless.

The white striped hoodie is from American Eagle, the green thermal is from Urban Outfitters, pants from DKNY, skirt from Tripp from Hot Topic, shoes are vans, socks from Esprit, scarf from Hot Topic, and underwear by aerie. Pardon the dumb face.

There Must Be a Full Moon Out

Girls have PMS.
Boys have GKW.
What's GKW you might ask.
GKY: God Knows What.

Girls have their crazy hormones
Guys have their strange disease
When every dude go crazy.

And then they go berserk
When girls go crazy as well
But maybe it's a bit of all our faults?
Only time can tell.

It just gets and worse
But there's light at the end of every tunnel.

Or at least, once it's hit
Rock bottom, there's no where
To go but up.

Right now there's just a new pit,
Formed by pent up rage,
Filled with bodies and bodies...
Or is that my tummy talking?

In my subconscious, the angry have
Tentacles, the annoyed have strobe lights,
And the annoying have umbrellas for heads.

Half the dudes I know
Are a combination of the first and last.
The girls they know
Have strobe lights that spin really fast.

Redneck Day at School (B.O.A.)

This week at school it's spirit week and today's theme was cowboys and Indians day. About three kids did the Indian part. The rest of the school looked like a plaid-and-bandanas monster puked on it. EVERYONE wore plaid and bandanas. The hardcore kids bought hats and boots. I didn't bother taking a full pic of my outfit, so I'll just talk about the top, hehe. Plaid shirt by Esprit, undershirt by Silence and Noise from Urbanoutfitters, and the bandana is from a birthday party I went to a couple of years ago. I tried braiding my hair, but that was a fail because it's so freaking layered. And did cowgirls wear red lipstick? Somehow I doubt it, but it makes me feel pretty.

Tomorrow is twin day, but I'm pretty sure I'm just going to come in with my uniform. Unless MG(squared) couldn't figure out was going on with her people.

People Have No Decency

I did not.
No, I did not.

I did not have to see
That.

You fuckin' perv.
I did not have to
See that.

I've tried to erase
You from my mind.

Christ,
I couldn't even sit
Down in the subway
Because of you.

Fuckin' perv.

How To Host a Murder (B.O.A.)

So this weekend I went to Pennsylvania with Alice Dork and her family to play this murder mystery game. I had so much fun. Her brother is possibly the most adorable thing on the planet! He's about six and just this ball of energy. Christ, I can and cannot wait to have kids.

To the left, we have my outfit. Dress and white shirt from Esprit, jeans by American Eagle, undies by aerie and boots from EasySpirit.

I played the part of Randy Shetes, an actress of many sorts. Some sorts aren't as clean as people can assume from the name. We were trying to figure out who killed Sir Roger. The clues were all kind of misleading and playing with a bunch of drunk people just gave me and Alice Dork an advantage. Playing darts for the first time and getting out of amateur-stage pool was really fun. Don't get me started on watching Disney movies: best stuff ever!

But I got oddly nostalgic for the mother country, Poland. Like the town and the house reminded me so much of it. I had so much fun though. But I'm like exhausted right now.

This Weekend Will Be Fun (R.P.)

Alice Dork invited me to her country house for a murder-mystery party. I'm super duper excited. I've never been over at a friend's house for the weekend. Well, in America, that is. In Poland, I'd like move into my friend's houses for weeks. Haha, good times. Man, I miss that place. Anyway, I'll give a full partially detailed description of what happened tomorrow.

Shoes (R.P.)

So Steve Madden might actually be my favorite brand of shoes. It's so hard picking just one pair that I like but I think I really like these. I love the lace-up and the heel, because since I'm really into fashion right now, I should get a pair of legit heels, not wedges. They look hot in flare jeans, which I wear a lot, so that makes me excited.

Ra-ra-ah-ah-ah Ro-ma Ro-ma-ma-ah (N.a.P.)

That's the outfit PBD and I wore for the Lady Gaga concert at Radio City Music Hall. It was incredible. The music and performance was awesome. My tube top is from Free People, undershirt is from Esprit, skirt from Tripp, tights from Hot Topic, boots by Steve Madden and undies by aerie.

But Lady Gaga is one hell of a performer. The concert felt more like a dance party because everyone was just rocking out. Plus, there was so much techno. SO MUCH techno. I'm guessing the person doing the remixing was Space Cowboy, since he's Gaga's DJ. She played basically all her popular songs and played some acoustic piano. People who went to the concert cannot say that she has no talent. She does and it showed.

The atmosphere at the concert was just awesome. Everyone seemed psyched and enthusiastic. I honestly felt like I was at the gay pride parade, since many of her fans swing that way. People got insanely dressed up for it. I thought I was a bit slutty, some girls forgot to wear pants. Some outfits looked a bit nightclub-ish but others were outrageous. I had to do double-takes on many guys because their outfits were so good and they looked exactly like Lady Gaga herself.

My favorite moments were Dance in the Dark, Poker Face, and Bad Romance, but Semi Precious Weapons were an awesome band. Too bad they flaked out for the meet-and-greet after the show. I never knew glam rock was so fun. Jason Derulo was cool too, except I'm not too big a fan of his music.

Overall, it was a great gig. So proud to be a "monster" tonight!

Infected Mushroom and VnV Nation (M.S.O.)

These two "bands" are absotively addictive. VnV Nation is awesome futurepop stuff. I discovered them through Mindless Self Indulgence, but originally I didn't think much of them. And Infected Mushroom is just WOW. Their music is made of crack. It's amazing though and sort of an acquired taste thing. But I'm into anything innovative and slightly bizarre. Definitely check these guys out though!

No Hablo Español

I just took my
Spanish midterm,
The fiasco that it was.

I told my parents it
Was fine because
If I said otherwise,
I'd be so dead right now.

I don't understand
How spending 5 hours
In a day working on
A language could come
To no avail.

But whatever,
I have two other
Tests to visit
Along my midterm
Trail.

Trance (M.S.O.)

What trance music is: music so steady and consistent that three songs could go by and you won't notice. It's quite awesome for studying. Think Tiesto and stuff. I went on a downloading rampage and added about 100 songs to my iPod. I might turn into one of those crazies that has maxed out their iPod Classic's memories. Nah, I'm not at that point yet. But seriously, this stuff is teh awesomez.

"School Is So Boring, I Skip All My Classes"

I didn't want to
Tell you to your face
Because you'd just
Complimented me
By thinking I was older,
But of course school
Is boring when you
Skip all your classes.

I'd much rather be
Sitting through a God-
Awfully long stats lecture
Than sitting at home
Or in a free
Doing absolutely nothing.

Like even though
I don't go to crazy
Parties and waste my
Time all day goofing off,
I'm definitely not bored.

I find ways to entertain myself.

Even though I'm
Typing up bio notes
For a study guide,
I am thoroughly
Entertained by all the
Trance music
Electrohead recommended.
(Thank you very much)

Puma Cabana Racer Sneakers (R.P.)

These are possibly the most fantastic sneakers I've ever gotten for the gym. They are comfy and don't squeeze my feet awkwardly. The price I got them for was awesome too: I wound up only paying 5 bucks out of my pocket thanks to gift cards and coupons. It's nice not working out in Vans or Converse.

Pray for Haiti (R.P.)

No, I did not just realize that there's mass devastation in the country of Haiti due to an earthquake. But I think we should pray for the people and donate money if we can. There are plenty of nifty things out there like texting Haiti to a number and donating ten dollars. I did it. So should you.

Maybe I Shouldn't Have

The relapses
Keep coming
More often than not
I don't if it's pms
Or if not.

I mean,
I'm
So negative again.

I already got into
My first college
And it's not enough,
I want to know
About everywhere else
Right now.

It's just so weird.
I was positive for
A bit.

Oh well,
I just gotta keep
Trying.

That's all I can say.

It Better Be Obvious (B.O.A.)

Title is unrelated...or is it? Haha, I just went to see Sherlock Holmes with some friends (see movie review below) and since I'm pmsing, I had a huge urge to dress cute. After changing about 4 times, which is a record, considering I usually change at least 10 times before settling on a tee shirt and sweatpants. It's pretty bad. But it'll all be over tomorrow!

Shirt from San Francisco, white tee from Esprit, skirt by Kimchi Blue for Urban Outffiters, tights from discount DKNY, underwear by aerie. I wore boots too which were from Steve Madden.

Sherlock Holmes (M.R.)

I saw Sherlock Holmes with a bunch of friends and I cannot say I was too impressed. The movie was fun, but lacked a certain wow factor. The plot was great, the action was great...I think what was missing was a ounce of sexual tension between Sherlock Holmes and Irene Adler. Maybe, I cannot quite put my finger on it.

Well, as people can tell from the trailer, Holmes is on a case to solve a mystery about Lord Blackwood rising from the dead. Since it's a movie, you probably know how it ends. I had no issues with the plot, since the action sequences were really well-timed. I think what bothered me the most were the scenes where we would explore nit-picky details. It was interesting, yes. But I feel it might have been more effective for the audience to think "OH! That's what that was!" during the actual scene. Another thing that irked me was that Hans Zimmer did the music. He's the guy that scored Pirates of the Caribbean and his stuff worked then, but I think it should have been more minimalistic and less Irish-sounding, considering that the film takes place in London.

I was kind of disappointed that the movie did not feature more of Holmes's and Watson's bromance. In the trailer, there was so much of it and honestly, it features a few scenes or recuts them so that they're not actually in the movie. Sorry to everyone who wanted to see Rachel McAdams in a corset. Speaking of Rachel McAdams, there was not enough sexual tension. Sure, they were flirting and having some non-consensual kisses, but there could have been so much more. It really played out like sloppy makeouts, genius edition. At some moments, the film felt a bit like Angels&Demons. I would say why, but that would give away too much of the plot and I am trying to keep this as spoiler free as possible.

Overall, I cannot say it was my favorite movie ever. But three cheers for having a plot and being fun to watch

Rating: 7/10

At the Gym and My Midterm (N.a.P.)

My English midterm went pretty well, I think. I don't want to jinx it because not many people in my class were too happy leaving it. Some of the essays were tough and I don't think my arguments were as solid as I would have liked them to be. I mean, it's kind of hard writing essays about stuff you don't care about, like should-be award-winning sows.

But you know, today must be "Joanna sees really really attractive people in the street" day. Walking to my dentist's office, I saw so many. It was crazy. I saw this one dude at the gym who looked like a leaner version of Robert Pattinson. It was AMAZING.

In other news, I'm never going to have to get my wisdom teeth removed because they don't exist.

"Sound of Listening"

Listening's an interesting skill
One that is useful
In class,
In life,
And can be abused
During tests.

Like my Spanish AP midterm.
It was quite useful
This week because
We were getting
Important
Notifications about
Exams.

It's quite useful
When talking to
People, really.

Speaking of quotes
From my English teacher
I should get started on
Studying for tomorrow's
Midterm.

Wish
Me
Luck :D

Jump Rope, My New Exercise (N.a.P.)

So since I've started senior year, I feel like my gym membership has to waste. I only have time to go once a week, if I'm lucky, so I resort to finding new ways to work out at home. I've heard suggestions about jogging but I have really weak knees. So I tried jumping rope, which actually has more to do with the ankles. And it's fun! You should try it!

What I Wore (B.O.A.)

So today I wanted to experiment with patterns so I did. Even though you can't really tell, I wore a vertically striped shirt from Esprit, a horizontally patterned sweater vest also from Esprit, black slacks from Esprit, tank top by American Eagle, and underwear by aerie. Played out better in my head, but it was still interesting. That's what I get for wearing clothes that don't fit me anymore, haha.

Something Everyone Will Enjoy (R.P.)

OUR ENGINEERING CLUB VIDEO

It's a fake informercial, but I'm proud of all the work the team put into it. Go us!

Book Suggestions? (N.a.P.)

I've been in a major rut with that reading thing. The last thing I remember reading was Vampire Academy by Rachelle Mead. Awesome series, by the way. But I kind of want new stuff to read. The last books to really catch my attention were Faerie Wars by Herbie Brennan, and that's all just teen fiction. I want to read some really good adult nonfiction, so all suggestions are welcome.

I'm open to anything except for chick lit, unless it's amazing. My friend tried introducing me to trashy beach novels, but wow that failed. I went to Barnes and Noble with Alice Dork and kind of saw a few books that might interest me. Don't know to what degree they will deliver, though.

What books have you read that were awesome?

It's Really Cold Out There (N.a.P.)

I wanted to wear a cute tunic sweater today but couldn't because of how freaking cold it is. It's 16 degrees outside. I'm sure it's colder where other people live, but I hate having "I wanna dress adorably" days and not getting to. But going to Urban Outfitters hopefully will make up for it.

I've been SO into fashion and looking good recently, it's kind of scary, haha. I browse lookbook.nu for inspiration because I think I deserve to look that good all the time too. I'm trying to get away from jeans and band tees to skirts and nice tops and edging away from sneakers and moving onto bootie or sandals. It's really fun. I just need more clothes that actually fit me. And the weather needs to get warmer.

The Streets At Dawn

Walking towards the subway
On a Saturday dawn,
The streets belong
To the pedestrians.

The free spirits,
The kids who wake up
Way too early to
Get to somewhere
That they'll be
For way too long.

But I saw plenty of
People on the streets
This morning.

People maybe on their way home,
People heading to Long Island
Like I was.
People just riding the subway.
Who knows why they were there.

But the important is:
There were no cars.
The streets belonged to us.

Chaminade (N.a.P.)

Speech tournaments drain souls. Seriously. If it isn't sitting in rooms for an hour three (or four) times in a day listening to people speak, then it's waiting endlessly for announcements to be made. But even though no one made it to finals and our school didn't remotely qualify for a team trophy, it was fun.

Me, Black&White Cookie, Innocence, and ToeTOEFL were there and it was boatloads of fun (that's five people, not four, by the way). Me and the Black&White Cookie have a bond over racial comments, political jokes, while Electrohead and I spent a good portion listening to techno music and stuff. God, I miss having a free with them. It was too much fun.

But anyway, speech tournaments have people I would probably not get along with. Like, I've tried and it hasn't worked out. My school's team in general is quite antisocial. We keep to our own. It's kind of amusing because Pink Sunshine was trying to scout out boy candy and she was like "you're theory is absolutely correct!" The theory is that there are no cute guys at speech tournaments. If there are, then they are either not on a speech team, gay, or on our school's speech team. It's proven true too often. I'm sure people will take offense to this and think I'm being stereotypical. It's just observations.

Oh My God, What WAS That? (B.O.A.)

Haha, sorry for the bad pic and crappy cell phone quality. I'll try to use my normal camera when taking the outfit pics. And dammit, this looked much better in my head. Well, green shirt by Esprit, necklace I got from my friend, Japanoholic, the dress I bought in the huge department store in Paris, Le Temps. Tights I bought in American Apparel and the shoes I bought in Loehmann's. Underwear provided by aerie.

Don't you love how organized my locker is? It's because all I need to do is sort of know where everything is. Because once I try to organize it, I'm like "OH NOEZ WHERE'S MY *insert class here* BOOK?" Yep, that's my AP Spanish Barron's book in the corner. Go me for overextending myself.

It's funny because one of the colleges I applied to asked if I wanted to go into their honor's program. Tempting, but I kind of wanted to do that whole regular classes thing at least my first year at a college. And plus, all my AP scores would catapult me into like sophomore year classes anyway. Ugh...so much work.

But um, yeah. I took a Statistics test today. Title says it all. Because that's ALL there is to say about Stats tests. At least at my school. I hope we get a mega curve or something because if not, I shall cry. Lots.

I Relapsed (N.a.P.)

Ugh, I didn't get the chance to take a picture of my outfit today, but I seriously looked awesome today. And people noticed. I wore a lilac, v-neck sweater with a white collared shirt, black slacks, and a chain necklace. Oh and I matched my eyeshadow. I looked really professional and pretty.

That is, until I relapsed into negativity. I was sitting in the senior section, observing the girls in my class and thought "Damn, I wish I were that skinny." But, no worries. One little thought isn't going to kill me. Plus, I think my body image is getting a bit more realistic. I was browsing American Apparel's website and I saw some cute things I liked, but knew that they weren't meant for girls of my shape. And you know what I thought? Not "oh my God, I could lose a few pounds," but "that's okay." I mean, I looked cute today. And that's really what mattered.

But yeah, I mean, when I feel good, everything else is good. Even though my life flashed before my eyes when I accidentally bumped into my old history teacher. Scariest moment this week.

"You're A Dancer, You're Not a Lover" (N.a.P.)

The title is unrelated, I just really like the song. But I was sitting in the speech meeting today talking with Electrohead about religion and whatnot and I mentioned how I disliked the campus ministry director because of how she runs the Mass. And in turn, I got called a "bad"Catholic, jokingly.

Anyway, sit tight, kids, because this is a rare opportunity where I talk about my views and religious beliefs and stuff. For one, I think the Church should revert to Latin-esque Mass because a little too much has been left in the hands of the people. Sure, it's awesome that people don't need to fear the altar and Eucharist like the plague and lay people can read at Mass, but sometimes it gets a bit far. Like lay people reading the Gospel and saying a homily that has nothing to do with the Gospel that was just read. That's a priest's job because he goes to seminar school for that. Sure some priests go too much by the Bible, but they're well-versed in it and should know the most accurate interpretations.

People complain about the Church being outdated and closed-minded. Sure, there are closed-minded people in every institution, but Vatican II happened for a reason. And I know there have been complaints about the Church not supporting the government on issues like abortion and gay marriage, but it's a free country, no? Church, and other, people can be against those things if they want to be. Me personally? I'm not getting either one of those things, but if someone wants, hey, it's a democracy, they can and should be able to. Except I only agree with abortions in the case of rape because irresponsible people should be taught to deal with consequences (disclaimer: not saying every pregnant teen is irresponsible, but if you decide to have sex and whoops! there's a baby. You should have to deal with the consequences). But like I said, if people want to, they should be able to.

And it's important to acknowledge the fact that the Church takes note of new ideas such as these and forms doctrine about them. Or refines a view to make it truer to what Jesus had stated thousands of years ago. Take suicide funerals, for example. In Shakespearean times, a suicide was not allowed a Christian funeral due to a state of mortal sin. Nowadays, they're treated like everyone else. Hell, even people who cheated on their wives, molested children, and murderers receive Christian funerals. Because Jesus would probably forgive them too.

From what I learned, the heart of Christianity is the belief in God and Mass and whatever, but it's also about not treating people like shit. By that token, gay marriage should be allowed, but gay sex is a bit taboo because it doesn't lead to babies. But like I said, I'm not getting one.

8:45 Am - 3:01 PM

My mind is a high way.
Thoughts going back
And forth.
Receiving information
And giving it.

It's 9:25 AM.
It's English class.
Nothing's happening.

So I think.
A lot.

What am I going to
Do about this nasty hunger
Pang I'm getting right now?

I kind of want a burger,
But I don't feel like
Wasting my money.

I also don't need to eat anymore crap
Food because I've already devoured
Two pizza pies this vacation
While at JETS.

Damn, I have a really
Good feeling about that
Video.

I hope my old math teacher
And the JETS judges
Panel like it too.

Ugh, I have to go to the nursing
Home today. That's gonna
Take years, considering how
Meticulous that nun is.

It's 9:26 AM
This was a longggg day.

Blogging (N.a.P.)

I spend way to much time looking up webcomics. And the webcomic community isn't even my scene. So this morning I decided to go look up some blogs and get in touch with other people who used blogger. I came upon some cool ones, but then I checked the dates. Some haven't been updated since 2007.

Which frustrates me because since there are so few updates, the blogs kind of lose interest. I lose interest in my own blog when I haven't updated in a few days. But that's because I am crazy about posting. Well, not so much crazy as absolutely on time with getting a daily blog entry.

Speaking of posting right on target, I greatly admire Jeph Jacques of Questionable Content. No matter how messed up his sleep schedule gets or how hectic his personal life is, he always manages to post every day. Even if it's not a "legit" comic, he still gets something up. And that keeps it interesting. It's sort of like bands that one amazing album and then you have to wait a few years for the next one to come out instead of them coming out kind of consecutively. Well, that can go two ways. Green Day waited for 5 years after American Idiot to release 21st Century Breakdown and that was incredible. The Killers come out with an album basically every other year and they've been going down a very perilous slope. Damn you, Brandon Flowers and your ego.

But it also happens in relationships too. Once there's a lull and the other person isn't as "exciting" anymore, it just gets boring.

As those Rémy Martin ads say, STAY INTERESTING (drink responsibly).

All the Right Moves

(Inspired by OneRepublic's song of the same title)

I used to be that girl
Sitting in a corner
Kind of scared of everything
That's around her.

She didn't think she
Had anything to offer
But then something kind
Of clicked inside.

I noticed I've got
Some beauty and some brains
And that makes me actually
Kind of awesome.

I realized
Appendages don't matter,
Like the size of your wallet
And your reputation.

I've got plenty
Of friends in plenty
Of places.
I'm not going down.

You can say all you
Want, but your words
Aren't going to get to me.

I know that I've hurt,
I've been laid to waste,
That glass structure
That used to be me
Is broken.

And it takes some time
And it takes some strength
To fix everything
And put it back to normal.

But it won't exactly
Be the same
And I kind of had to learn
That the hard.

And I don't think
Anyone can bring me down
Again.
I've gotten better.

I think I'm all right,
I think I'm okay.
I've returned to health.

And honestly
Things cannot have been better.

Nursing Home, JETS (N.a.P.)

All these issues I have with getting forms signed at the nursing home I volunteer at are getting on my nerves. Like, I don't think it's reasonable for me to have to wait three days for the lady to sign the forms. She disappears whenever she seems to want and doesn't tell anyone. It's kind of annoying.

But the JETS video's primary filming is done! My heart goes out to Arizohna, Cats, ToeTOEFL, Alice Dork, Sits In Front, ADDZone, FemiRose, Columbia, and PRST. Thank you for all your hard work during the year and whatnot. Maybe we'll make it to finals? I think we can. Our video is clever and awesome, and in loving memory of Billy Mays.

School comes back to haunt me on Monday. Let's see how good I'll be with daily blog posts then.

New Year's Day (B.O.A.)

Sorry about the crappy cell phone quality pic. But first outfit for actually try to look pretty day! Yay! I had lunch with three friends and I wanted to look somewhat cute. Sweater courtesy of the country of Peru, jeans by American Eagle, underwear by Aerie. The sweater used to be soooo tight on me when I got it. But 20 pounds and a few inches lost later and it's kinda baggy.

But according to what I did today, this is what I'm expecting in 2010:

• Lots of essay writing.
• MONSTER!!!!
• Cute outfits
• Lots of makeup
• Meeting up with friends
• Arguing with my mom
• Cute people
• Church time
• Loads of music
• Having my instrument playing sessions rudely interrupted
• Phone calls with friends
  

I'm somewhat superstitious. I mean, I don't exactly do things out of fear, but there are cute ones that are so "what if" factors. Like, what if it were true that whatever you do on New Year's Day and how good it is is a sample of the rest of the year? That'd be pretty sweet.

But anyway. I hope everyone had a great day either hanging out, spending time with family, or nursing that hangover.

It's 2010, Bitches

I called it a random post because it isn't long enough to be a not a poem. But I've got me some resolutions.

1. Not turn into a total freaking scene kid when I move out.
2. Get into and go to a college I really like
3. Make new friends
4. Maintain current friendships
5. Organize a bimonthly get togethers with human beings
6. Not cry as much
   
7. Take two days a week to actually look nice

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! (I said it in the last post, but I'll say it again)
Three cheers for 2010!