I'm supposed to be calm right now. I'm the total opposite. I really wish everything would be as the picture above states. That if I just stop being afraid, everything is going to be ok. What if it isn't? I know my fears are totally grounded this time around and I just don't want to think about them. But every time I do, I just get more and more scared. It's something going through me and I don't like it. No one should like it. I hope no one likes it. Well, I'll just find out tomorrow. And hopefully a nice warm cup of coffee can speed up the freak out so I can get to my "I don't give a crap" place. I like that idea. A lot.