Four hours of solid work. Two on an essay and two for a prelim. Priorities split, one clearly overtaking the other. I can do an essay. Improving from a C- to something better by the second test is not something guaranteed or even possible. But I know I can do it. The cleverness, problem solving, and knowledge are all there; in class, they are; in the homework, they are. Oh God, please (PLEASE) let me do well. I win in one part of my life. I don't want to use it as a crutch to lift me from the fall in the academic part. If I fall again, I probably cannot get up. So I can't fall. I won't let that happen. But I am sincerely worried it happened again. How can one possibly do well when one only completely answered 3 out of 6 problems? And by 3, I mean, parts that make up the equivalent of 3 problems. Although everyone agrees with me. At least, I hope they do and aren't lying.