Fear

It's not even fun.
Not the fun type of
"Oh snap, this is exciting"
The type that gives you a
Blood rush to the head
And makes your heart pound
And makes your breath short.

No.
This is just...
Terrifying and crippling.
I refuse to get hurt.
But I have to be vulnerable.

How does one reconcile those
Two?

Do you...
I don't know.
When there's an answer,
I'll make it known.