I don't know what's gotten into me these days, but the excitement, rigor, enthusiasm, and determination I had to kick this semester in the ass has just died on me. Like, I genuinely feel like it's not going to happen. My transfer isn't going to happen. That it's just going to be a repeat of when I really wanted to get into Brown, I did everything right, and yet somehow it didn't happen. But I really don't want that to happen with transferring out of engineering. I don't know. Maybe my grades will rescue themselves.