Love

My heart pines for you.
SO badly.
When my music and my television is off...

I HEAR IT SCREAMING FOR YOU.

I know you want me to be happy
With someone who will "actually support" me.

But I was happy with you.
And I'm still happy loving you.
I still love you.

Because you're you.
Even if you feel like shit,
I know you're not.

And I understand if you can't
Give me the support I need right now.
But I want to support you.
And I am.
I so am.

I just wish that
My heart would stop crying.

I'm afraid of drowning.
And water bubbles forming in my veins.
And my blood pressure going
To record highs because
Of all the salt.