Discouraged

Taken from life is wine

Ever feel like if you had infinite time and infinite effort, things still wouldn't work out?  I want my hours back.  I want that entire night back.  I don't care that I spent it with a boy I really like.  I would've if it had results.  I could've not studied for that test and still gotten the same result.  What's the point of formulating exams and assigning practice problems that are totally unrelated?  And you just completely want to give up because that's the test you had most time to study for and the only thing you know about the others is that they will suck.  The most depressing statement ever is that I can start to see why people would want to give up completely and hurl themselves into a gorge.  This is not to say that I want to do that, but I can see why.  You work and you work and you get no results.  Hours wasted.  You feel like you know things, but you don't.  You simply don't.  You don't know them in the way the professor expects you to.  And I want to give up, so badly.  Just to stop and just plow through everything.  But goddammit, I've gone through my entire life so far not getting what I want, and if I don't fucking get my major, I don't know what I'll do.  And I'm not going to let a bunch of little questions deter me.  Even though this is the hardest thing I've had to do yet.

The Atrium At Night

Taken from p.heartache

It was so quiet.  Like, hearing a pin-drop status.  It was me, him, and 3 other people.  Silently doing work.  Until the wee hours of the morning...that's a lie.  Into the next day.  I slept some.  He slept none.  And the work still doesn't end.  And all I want is a nap.

Wholesome

Taken from the pursuit of happyness

I've been learning a lot from hanging out with Buttface.  We do things that I should be able to do with someone I'm dating.  Like be totally open with each other.  Cook together.  Go food shopping together.  Nice things like that.  Watching tv while eating together.  I am setting high standards for my next boyfriend.  If that ever happens.

The Only Way Out Is To Get In

Taken from the sweetest of words have the bitterest taste.

I changed my ways a bit this semester.
I got my priorities in line.

I stopped being so kissably loose.
I decided to let myself shine more
And not let my lips meet someone
Else's on a whim.

And I'm as lonely now as I was then.

But I guess it's a more genuine type of lonely.

No one is lying that they want to spend time with me.
Because no one is spending time with me.

But I'm also not allotted much time
For spending exclusive time with someone.

I guess I want quality over quantity.
Where you don't have to be
Communicating every second
Of your life to feel like
You care about that person.

But I can't waste time feigning
Over something that won't happen.

Instead of waiting for a dude to give me
What I want,
I think I'll just go out into the campus
And find a dude who will.

Hanging Out, Doing Work

Taken from $$

I like us when we hang out.  It's fun, it's awesome.  There's some contention, but you can't expect two people who are under boulders and boulders of stress to be totally calm and understanding with each other.  But you can expect them to at least get along to the point that the frustration doesn't make one or the other walk out.  And you can expect some laughter during the pauses and lots of chill time, just enjoying each other's company.

Sucker Punch (M.R.)

Taken from The State Of Happiness :)

First off, it is not some movie intended just for dorky kids wanting to see scantily-dressed girls fight off demons with swords and guns.  I mean, that is an element, but Sucker Punch is not for everyone.  For an action movie, it's got quite a bit of depth.  I think a more accurate description would be "Inception featuring scantily-clad girls fighting off demons with swords and guns."

I really wanted to think this movie was based off something.  A book, a graphic novel, a video game...something!  But the beauty of it was that it wasn't.  Sure, it took action and stylistic motifs from all those media, but that's what made the movie so interesting to watch.  The costumes were amazing and each character had a distinct style.  The only ones fully developed were Baby Doll, Sweet Pea, and Rocket, but it's difficult to do that in a 1.5-hour time-span.

The plot was really substantial for an action movie.  There were so many layers that just made it interesting.  A mental institution, a brothel, and a video game.  I approved of it greatly.  Zach Snyder's talent in movie-making seems to come from the fact that he can make pretty obvious breaks between the action and more sentimental bits of a movie (like in Watchmen).

In short, I thought this movie was excellent and good time.  It takes you on an adrenaline-filled, emotional rollercoaster.  And covers a lot of issues.  Plus, who wouldn't want to see girls beat up stuff?  In addition, it has inspired me to get fit (and maybe possibly acquire the ability to dead lift my weight [no big deal]).

Rating: 9/10

Your Face

Taken from :1 of 67

I want to kiss it.  As I tend to add, everywhere.  Like all over your face.  Maybe not all over, but on most of it.  And I hope you want to kiss mine.  I know I've been super restrained and stuff because normally, I am a lot more forward and flirtier, but I don't want to scare you away.  I don't want to seem distant.  So I will try to kiss your face.  Be ready!

Getting It Together

Taken from Tongue Like Electric, Eyes Like a Child

I want to be fit like those
Sucker Punch girls except
With not so drastic results
And in not the same time span.

I just want to be as tiny
As I can be without losing my
Overall shape, but making it tighter.

But I don't want it to take precedence over
My academics.

I want it to be supplement.

So I can carry a 10 pound and over tote bag without wanting to die at the end of the day.

I Like Spring

Taken from Paper Tissue.

I used to like winter because of the romanticism.  The potential to snuggle up to someone while wearing a thick wool sweater in front of a fire while sipping a cup of hot cocoa.  Going out at non-absurd hours when it's really dark and playing snowball fights and sledding.

I'm starting to like spring more though.  It's warm.  You don't have to study indoors.  You can run around and play and stuff without worried about getting your clothes wet or your fingers cold.  But most of all, the sun's out.  I never though I'd say this, but I really miss the sun.

Hopeless

Taken from closer ❦ to the sun

I hope that one day I'll lose it.

And it'll look like something
From an indie movie.

Except there won't be any
Fancy camera angles
Or lights coming from everywhere.

There won't be a person,
Who will come and take care of me.

I'll lose it enough to seem fine,
So no one would suspect a thing.

And then I'll go out
And go party,
Just enough to not remember a thing.

And I'll spent the next day
And maybe even the next week
Recreating myself anew.

And I'll come out of it
Completely detoxified
And no one should recognize me.

But all that effort
For a taste of self-discovery
Just does not seem worth.

I don't want to be the girl
Who goes home with some random
Stranger and doesn't even know their name.

Red Riding Hood (M.R.)

Taken from closer ❦ to the sun

Since I was traveling most of today, I am a little delayed on posting this.  But anyway.  This movie is a classic fantasy love triangle wrapped in a nice package of little red riding hood and other wolf lore.  Even though this movie was directed by Catherine Hardwicke (who did Twilight), my friend and I decided to give her a fair shot.

I thought this movie was a lot of fun.  In a sense, it is an awesome date movie.  It has suspense and action to satisfy a guy's needs and some romance to satisfy a girl.  I know it bothered people that the girl usually goes for the not as secure relationship, but isn't that where conflict comes in?  Anyway, I thought it was a great plot and me and my friend were guessing the whole way through who the wolf was.  I don't know if it was entirely warranted but whatever.

People have complained that the period piece did not have enough intricate clothing and no one sounded British.  Um, does everyone in that kind of movie have to be British?  Also, the plot takes place in a village, where it seems like no one has much money.Who said it was a period piece anyway?  I feel like the story could have worked in a modern village too.

All in all, this was a good, fun, action-filled, romance-filled work that everyone should go see.  Be it seriously or not seriously.

Rating: 8/10

Not Enough

Taken from p.heartache

I didn't do enough work this break.  Not at all.  I feel like there's a huge mountain looming over me and it's entitled Mount ThisWeekaManjaro.  And there's Mount NextWeekevest.  I just need to get there.  See my friends in between.  Maybe sleep.  Maybe.  Is that even a thing anymore?

Patience

Taken from life is wine

Learning an instrument,
Like programming,
Takes patience.

But there's a difference between the two.

I like one of them.

And the other doesn't take all break.
It takes years.

Female Six Pack

Taken from the pursuit of happyness

I have a problem.

I see it forming
And my first instinct is to start eating more.
To make it go away.

It's SO unfamiliar.
Like, what is this?
Definition?

I mean,
I guess it takes some
Getting used to.

But it's still freaking strange!

Colbert Report Taping, OHMAHGAWD (T.V.C.)

Taken from roflrazzi

So yesterday, like I did in January, I saw a taping of a popular comedy show.  And this time, it was The Colbert Report.  It was a little more disorganized than The Daily Show, but it was fun nonetheless.

A lot of it mimicked the other taping, such as having the opening comedy come out.  And he was just the king of awkward.  I mean, he was funny, really funny.  But the jokes he made were a little more R-rated.  Such as when he turns to a kid and said "say HA as if you injected your penis with heroin...oh shit that's your mother next to you, isn't it?"  Many moments like that occurred.

After many moments of banter, Jersey jokes, and getting pumped for the show, Stephen Colbert came out...out of character!  He's actually not too different, except he doesn't come off as crazy.  He talked about the dynamics between his family and how he keeps a lot of his show persona secret from his younger children so that they don't get confused between their dad and the guy on television.

And then the show started.  And since it aired already last night, it's fine to talk about it.  During one of the parts, he messed up and his face looked like he was begging the camera to fix it.  Which, it did.  Nonetheless, it was great to see such a candid moment.

This Stuff Is Making Me So Mad

Taken from :1 of 64

My blood is boiling.
My blood is boiling.
My blood is boiling.
Because of matlab.

My head is pounding like,
My head is pounding like,
My head is pounding like,
A drum.

My tea is boiling,
The sound's annoying me,
The clacking's annoying me.
Check it out.

And it's supposed to be spring BREAK.
Not spring ANGRY.

The Rationale Behind No Pants

Taken from the pursuit of happyness

The purpose of a Lenten sacrifice
Is to take on some personal challenge
To make you a better person.

And being a better person does not
Only mean improving how you relate
To others, but could mean improving
How you relate to yourself.

By not wearing pants,
I am forced to just deal with
My insecurities more constructively
Than just putting pants on and pretending
Everything is okay.

It makes me own up to how
I feel about myself.

I'm getting used to the idea
Of people seeing my legs
All the time.
And I'm getting used to me
Seeing my legs all the time.

And it's weird.


But strangely liberating.

Getting There

Taken from ~sassy turd~

I've never been so stressed out.
I just want some thing to go right.
Or at least stabilize.
Or not be so stupid.

But I got my friends.
I got my hugs.
I got things.

But I don't think I got
Anything going for me.

But it's freshman year.

What the hell do I know?

October Boys

Taken from p.heartache

They're cute, fun, and polite.
They seem to be into the same things I'm into.
Or maybe not exactly the same,
But pretty darn compatible things.

And they watch decent TV with me.
And everything is good.

Thy seem to be smarter than me,
But that's just what I need.

My Body is An Asterisk

Taken from life is wine

An afterthought.

A thing I don't really think about too much
Or care for particularly.

Until I realize it's actually pretty important.

Like a footnote.
Or a footer.
Or I'll call it whatever I damn well please.

But it's my body, let me do what I want.